Golden Black

This fiction is about Hila, a 17-year-old girl who wished to see the world for what it really was—to explore the hidden mysteries that no one else knew. But with all those dreams, she developed a nihilistic way of thinking that completely ruined her life. Fortunately or not, she was lucky enough to get what she wished for. The question now would be whether she accepts the reality of her wish. First time writing a fiction in first pov. Keep in mind that I'm not a psychiatrist. My views are coming from real-life experience that I, myself, have some understanding of.